Thursday, May 31, 2018

HORSE CROSSING


This year when I was out in Arizona visiting my mom I was able to finally check something off my bucket list, I was able to see wild horses.  For many years I have had a dream of seeing wild mustangs, I saw them on TV shows and in movies but I longed to see them in person.  Well I got to do just that this year.  Funny thing is though Jerry and I have driven past this same spot for many years on our way to Saguaro Lake.  At least twice during our visits we go there because it is like an oasis in the desert.  Anyway as I was talking to my mom about how I'd love to someday see wild mustangs, she mentioned, "you never saw them on the way to Saguaro Lake?"  Nope I never even thought that there would be that possibility in the desert, even though I had seen the horse crossing signs, I just figured it was for those trail riders.  I was wrong.  

The thing I realized this year when I finally got to see these horses is this...sometimes God puts signs right in front of us and if we don't pay attention, we will miss out on His blessings.  Sometimes we're in such a hurry we miss His signs, sometimes we're so wrapped up in our own little world that we ignore His signs, and then again sometimes we're just simply looking in the wrong direction.  For years I have missed out on seeing these amazing creatures because of my mental blindness.  For years I ignored the signs right in front of my face.  For years I looked in the wrong direction because I couldn't see the truth right in front of me.  How about you?

What are you missing out on?  What signs are you ignoring?  What direction are you focused on?  It's easy in this life to constantly look at others and blame them for your unhappiness.  It's so easy to finger point and blame.  It's easy to look in the rear view mirror at our past and make a list of wrongs that others have done to us.  It's easy to focus on how others need to change, how others need to just grow up.  It's easy to see others faults.  It's easy to judge others, but maybe it's time we stop looking at others and look in the mirror.  Maybe it's time we take and inventory of our own lives and our own hearts and be honest with ourselves.  

It's painful sometimes to see the signs that are staring us right in our face.  It's hard to face the truth about who we are and what we've done.  It's even shocking for us to look in the mirror and see the wretched person we have become.  My happiness does not rely on anyone else but me and my God.  I cannot think that it is Jerry's job to make me happy.  My peace does not come from everyone treating me the way I feel I should be treated, it comes from my relationship with God.  Oh I can't lie, there are times I get frustrated and upset and I start to point fingers, then God reminds me to look in the mirror.  The signs God places before me point to my heart problem and my mind problem.  I cannot blame anyone else but myself.  

Through my faith and belief in Jesus Christ, I am as free as these wild horses.  Yet I have a responsibility to become all God wants me to be and only through an honest look in the mirror can I ever begin to change and grow into the disciple God desires me to be.           

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