Wow!!! It's been 3 years since I last typed on this blog. God has definitely had me on a journey that I wasn't prepared for. My husband Jerry passed away in 2022 and my son Sean, who was battling brain cancer passed away 7 months later. like I said, I wasn't prepared for this journey BUT GOD!!
This journey is not one I would wish on anyone. It's not an easy path to take. It's a journey that is unique to everyone. No one's journey is the same. But what I didn't realize was God was preparing me for this journey for many years in advance. You see He has been writing my story since the day I was born. He had the outline and the chapters written long before I took my first breath here on earth. He had a plan and a purpose to my life that I didn't know or fully understand. Some of the things I endured in life helped me to grow deeper and closer to God.
Through all the plot twists in this book called "My Life" I learned to trust the author of my life. But I do have to admit that these last 4 years has drawn me closer to Him than I have ever been. Jesus has held me when I cried at night, He has dried and collected so very many tears. He was my companion as I sat alone in my home every day. He was my dinner date and confidant. No one but Jesus knows what I've been through in these last few chapters of my book of life. I totally relied on Him because, at times it felt like He was all I had.
Jesus Christ is my strength, my peace, my living hope, my redeemer, my Savior, my Lord and He is the author of my story. He knows me better than I know myself. Why would I not trust in the one who knows me best? Why would I not trust the one who is writing my story? He has a plan and a purpose for my life. I don't always understand it and honestly I don't always like His plan, but I fully trust in His plan.
Soon I'll be starting a new chapter that God has written for me. I will be marrying an amazing godly man who loves me and cares for me more than I deserve. He holds me and comforts me when the weight of my loss hits me like a ton of bricks. He loves God in a way that inspires me. He has helped heal this wounded and broken heart in a way I never expected or hoped......BUT GOD knew!
